I often spend a lot of time alone, thinking, and doing more thinking. it seems that my mind is constantly bombarded with thoughts and more thoughts, and there isn't anyone that I can share those thoughts with. And when there is someone around for me to share those thoughts with, I don't know how to put those thoughts in a way that the other person will understand.

I want to discuss about things that my husband doesn't like to discuss about. I want to discuss being a mother. He says that it is not the right them.  He says that after I have worked outside  the home, and have lived my life, then it will be time for children. However I cannot work without a degree.

I am just going to tell him how I feel and that I understand where he is coming from, that I understand his worry. I have my worries to.

Step number one I need to get my degree. Step number two, I would gladly have the baby in America, if I was guaranteed that I would get proper, medical care.

However if the baby is born here, I would simply have to apply for an immigration petition, sense i left America when i was seven and a half, and haven't gone back.

Unless I go back and register as an American resident, and then come back and have the baby, then the baby would be American.

These are the two things that have been going about in my mind.